Getting over the feeling of lacking time. A spring update.

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Hello everyone,

I have a day off today, and I decided to spend my morning chilling down on the couch and sharing with you my new great discovery and some very exciting things that have been going on in my personal life and business. Are you ready? 😃

Spring has finally arrived in Sweden. Where we live, we've already had some summery days where it was so great feeling the sun on our skin. Days have started to grow longer, and we can already see hints of the midnight sun at night, which is very exciting!

This spring is being very special to me. After what we went through last year, I feel like I missed the good weather season completely (you can watch this video if you missed it to be updated) ⬇️ so being able to go out in this great weather feels amazing.

Silvia's treatment is working super well, and she's full of life and energy again. Just as she used to be when I met her, or even better 🥳 On a personal level, this means that we are now able to experience life as everyone else does. We are free again to fly on our own, and we have already started to do so! Our van is fully repaired now after the accident, and we have been taking it on short road trips that have recharged our batteries. Many of the photos I shot during those mini trips were shot on film, and I will very soon develop the rolls. Shooting film is something that I thought I'd never do. It felt too expensive for the hustle, but now that I am doing it, I am surprised by how many things I am learning and how using my analog camera is making me think and experience photography. Definitely something that I want to share more about.

The Beginnings Project

Beginnings is the name of the photography business project that I've been working on for quite some time now. It is a passion project that documents the story of women who are born into mothers and what motherhood looks like nowadays. I want to bring these stories to the table to break the tabus that surround this huge part of womanhood. I want it to become an opportunity for all of us to talk about it and learn more from it. Hopefully, we will learn things together and improve what can be improved so that, in the end, life becomes easier and more pleasant for mothers and their babies.

At some point realized I could turn this into my own business, and that's what I've slowly been doing for the past couple of years.

Having no background or education in business, I've had to learn everything from the ground up (and I still do), which to me is being such an enthralling experience at many levels. This process is teaching me that I am free to create anything I want in my life. I am already able to see how things unfold before my eyes as the result of the seeds I've been planting with time, and it is hard to put in words how that makes me feel 🙈

There has already been a pinnacle on my journey that I am happy to share here with you now.

The whole idea for Beginnings happened somewhere around 2016. I had just started taking photography seriously and wanted to learn more about it. Having been very passionate about birth since I was a kid, I thought to myself that a birth would be such a unique thing to photograph and that one day I would like to photograph one myself.

In my own world, I was blind to the fact that there were people doing that already. That didn't change until a friend of mine found an article about a worldwide birth photography competition online. As you can imagine, this article put my world upside down. It made me feel less alone, less crazy, and one step closer to doing what I wanted to do.

Later on, as I immersed myself more in financial independence, social media, and business, I had the realization that I could try to turn this idea into my own business. I told this story in more detail in one of my videos, which I'll link here for you to watch if you haven't already. 👇

Things have developed very slowly. It has taken me years to get to this point, and I am a very impatient person. This project of mine is the project of a lifetime, and yet I put so much pressure on myself because I don't think things are happening as quickly as I would like them to.

Being new in Sweden and knowing no people didn't make things easier. On top of that, what I want to do requires trust from people so that they become open to sharing such an intimate moment with me. Just one year ago, I felt like that moment would never arrive for me. But you know what? IT ALREADY DID! and in the most unexpected way, just like all good things happen. I will share the details of exactly how it happened in a video soon, but at least I would like to capture the moral of that story here.

We oftentimes lose track of how things compound as we go. I am able to see more and more how what I do sits on top of the previous work I've done, which not only makes me grow as a person and professional but also enriches the work I am able to show. It feels as if I couldn't go further without adding one new layer at a time.

I struggle a lot with wanting to rush in my daily life. Knowing how many things I have to do for the business to take off makes me feel very anxious, and I am often stuck in complaints about how much time my work at the restaurant robs from what I need to be doing for the business to grow.

I forget that everything is ok and that I am here to enjoy the process of building this project. There's no rush. I have to remind myself of this every once in a while because the voice in my head ends up convincing me of the fact that things could happen quicker if I put more time into developing the business or if I were able to connect with more like-minded people, blah, blah, blah. But if I am honest with myself, I know that everything happens at the right time, and things will come to me once I am ready for them to happen.

The other day Jonna Jinton shared a mantra that really resonated with me for this reason. The mantra goes, "I don't chase, I attract". I find it so powerful. It says: "I am not the person who runs after something desperately and without being ready to hold it, but rather the one who becomes the kind of person who is able to sustain that circumstance in their life". Isn't that beautiful?

Things I’ve enjoyed lately

📚Heal your wounds and find yourself, by Lise Bourbeau

I found myself immersed in one of these crises the other day, and I started reading a book that has been blowing my mind. The author has found that we develop certain emotional wounds in the very first stages of our lives. These wounds have such a big impact on how we perceive things and act. They shape us and seriously condition our lives. Very much like the enneagram, for example, this approach can make us see so much of ourselves and allow for a cure to happen. I am going to add it to the list of resources on my website since I find it has the potential to help so many people. I really encourage you to give it a go. I promise you'll be surprised.

🎥 The Whale

I had no idea what to expect from this movie. Having read nothing about it, Silvia and I decided to watch it last night. I'll just say that I didn't think it would be so profound. I won't say anything about it besides the fact that I consider it to be a masterpiece. It is a must, and I couldn't recommend it more.

🎶 Where is Home (Hae Ke Kae) by Abel Selaocoe

This album brought me to tears. Abel is a cellist I didn't know about until a few days ago when I stumbled upon his album on Spotify. The colors of his picture made me want to listen, and what I found moved something hidden deep inside me. I never felt freedom as a cellist. I was always afraid to break the rules of classical music; honestly, I never tried. I was able to reproduce what others had written in a beautiful way, but I had no voice to speak for myself, or I cut myself off from it. In a way, that is a wound that I carry with me and want to heal one day. My cello has always been very important to me, and I feel deeply connected to it. I just need to learn about a better way to make it sound and spend time with it. Abel has a very strong musical voice, and what he is capable of and what he dares to do with it feels like a breath of fresh air to the cellist that I am. I am so thankful I found him.